Wednesday, June 26, 2013

I liken cleaning the house to CLEANING MY HEART.....

You know when the house is just a is cluttered from YEARS of neglect...and you have items you held onto for sooooooooo long because of emotional attachments?

How is this any different than our heart lives?  The "heart" house is the same way....we hold onto things from past experiences that can hold us back from walking freely in and around the rooms, closets, doorways....we trip over things and can't remember WHY that object was there, OR in some cases...we know what it is and WHY it is there, but we haven't bothered to take it to the trash or give it away.
Why did I keep this again? 

I've been going through this process going on about a year now.  I decided it was time to de-clutter more of my home.  My goal is to really get rid of the things I don't use or need and let someone else use them.  After about 5 trips to the store dropping off things...I realized just how much better I felt.  At the same time I was addressing my internal issues.  Be that: insecurities, fears, doubts, past hurts and things that were cluttering up my thought life.  I addressed my hall closet realizing that there were things tucked in there for YEARS I had never addressed or looked at until i OPENED THE DOOR and turned on the light.

It takes a lot of courage to let yourself see yourself as you are.  It takes courage to let someone see what is going on or even YOU see what is really going on and taking responsibility for your thoughts, mouth and actions.  You can a long hard look at your mirror...or you can take a long hard look into your closet filled with dirty laundry, old blankets and things you never use.  The reality is, we all have these things.

I'm in the end stages of a few of my rooms here...and being an artist...I feel that CLUTTER has simply been a part of my life and sometimes, it always will be.  But the difference is:  I'm finding the place for the things that can stay.  They will have their own place, their own compartment and I can easily find that thing when I need it.  I have a photograph of me and my family when i was young...and I don't know who it was that bought me the shirt...but seriously - I'm a messy person!  The shirt read:  "Clean rooms are boring".  I actually can agree!!!!  Whilst I love cleaning and having a clean house...I also know that when I'm done cleaning, it might not always stay that way!  And it is OK!!!!  I realize the process of maintenance of my heart-life and well as my home-life is the same.  You have to pick things up, vaccuum a little....and smile when you are done to face it another day.
"Clean Rooms are Boring"

I think a genuine fear of "boredeom" can hinder a lot of us.  I know that I've stopped myself from achieving certain things out of fear of boredom.  Now I think it is more of a fear of not contributing to this planet and why i'm here.  I want to make a difference every day in large and small quanitities.  If I'm not contributing and doing things to activiely participate in life - I feel like life is just not as fulfilling as it can be.

On the flip side...I understand how SO VERY IMPORTANT rest is.  Oh my Lord how we take ourselves wayyyyyyyyyyyy too seriously!  We think that over-working and over-spending and over-thinking is how life is supposed to be.  But really it is simple.  DO and BE all that God has called you to be.  His word says LOVE is a huge factor in why we are here.  Loving Him, Loving OTHERS (as ourselves).  That is a lot of love to dish out if you really put in the numbers ya know?  It is ok to ask for help and it is ok to fail.

Take the time sometimes to step back from your "busy" life and examine where your time is going.  What are you leaving behind...are you doing the things that are fulfilling to your deepest desires?  I'm talking about things that are truly made from LOVE (not darkness).  Love has a multitude of layers to it!

Over-thinking stops you from DOING anything about the desires in your heart.  If you spend too much time inside your head-  you might want to come out into the real world and use your eyes, ears, arms and legs ( and whatever you have been given to use) experience fullness, wholeness and love in a new way.

One of the coolest people that ever blessed me was Mia - one of our dearest blue man friends.  She was in a wheelchair pretty much completely dependent on everyone to help her every day.  Except for one thing - that girl used her internet skills as much as she could to make digital art for all of us, emails consistently and lots and lots of smiles.  How can we let any physical things stop us when I see what she did for so many people and I guarantee you - we didn't thank her enough.  We probably looked at those emails and in our *MINDS* said to ourselves "what a blessing"...but we might have never met her, or said it to her before she passed away.  My point something NOW to make someone else's life better....encourage are the KEY to making a difference.  And don't expect thank yous....sometimes, those are rare.

Thank someone today, and really mean it.

Treat someone or something as if it was your last time to see it or see them.

Clean your house, go see what I mean about how you find MEANING in cleaning your home....find out for yourself what it means to go through that PROCESS.

And finally.....................

nothing changes if nothing changes.

and CHANGE is the only constant.

get used to it!

it's about to get real fun in GREEN BAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I will be reuniting with some lovely friends I met in St Louis....and we are going to continue our creative journey with fun, laughter, teaching, loving, talking and more!!! I cannot wait to reconnect with everyone!!!!!

Erin, Muja and Jane..........let's do this!!!!!

Monday, June 24, 2013

A great day to art-ify things!

so i'm prepping myself for a unique challenge....................

TEACHING and SHOOTING a workshop!!!!!!!!!!!

You could say really i'm partnered up with some amazing people: models, stylists, MUAs....we are about to have some crazee fun in Green Bay.

In prep for my time there....(of which i want NO wasted time!)....I started thinking of things and ideas i could work into our time together with modeling and art and props.

So in prep for my journey, I grabbed some goggles and will also have one more tidbit on the way in for my shoot this weekend.  I hardly feel ready, but i know that the magic happens when we also fly by the seat of our pants.  In other words, it is nice to have ideas...but just sit back and let it alllll unfold!!!! :)

If all goes well, (and we know it will) some of these will be published in select magazines for related topics and themes.  We have a *mini plan* in place...and CAPTURE IT!!!!

Meanwhile, enjoy these silly images of me prepping for the shoot this coming weekend....

can you believe it is almost 4th of July?

Monday, June 17, 2013

Engagements at Celestial!

it was a hot hot hot summer's evening....and we walked around the park and found fun things to do and create!!!!

Friday, June 7, 2013

Creating for OTHERS and Creating for myself.

I have a huge desire to co-create with my clients....ahhhhhhh the fun of taking some fun moments and making some unique out of their environment.  I gravitate towards a lot of shapes, lights and weird forms.  I have to say that this piece is definitely topping one of my FAVORITES so far this far as a wedding pieces goes.  I barely had to do anything but bring to a reality what i had in my mind.  Things don't always come so fast, so i was pleased to see how colorful and crisp this came out!  All from a blend of their environment at the venue Buffalo Valley Event Center.

"Creating for them"....

Because I tend to have a LOT of emotions going already when I'm working..I decided to re-visit a piece I was working on for an art contest...and in doing so...i discovered the blend of past and present made a cool match.  I'm like totally diggin what I've done here with carrie.  Originally this was a form for a flashlight and my drapes.  Now, it has morphed into something I can only call the "opposite" of what I have felt in the past.  Where everything "seemed" so clear...but there were a gazillion things flying around...and a gazillion things ON me making life a little harder to comprehend with so little sight.  I find the beauty in this seeming chaos, but I know it is a place I don't want to live.  I like seeing more CLEARLY, now more than ever.

Both of these pieces have things in common....LIGHT - both factors are clearly stated in the various rays of light in the sun, the light sources, the shapes and textures.  I hope you enjoy them both!

"Creating for Myself"

Go out, enjoy today....and CREATE something unique that expresses your dual feelings!

Love Jen

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

In the midst of March We had Justin + Jennifer!!! at the Dallas Heritage Village!!!

So we had a BLAST with these 2 and their wedding party.  She had so many fun ideas and things to share with me as we created and shared their day.  The food trucks that gave us food were sooooo fun!  She had various circus-type themed things as well as simple carnival style items.  They definitely put a TON of personality into their day!!!! It was super super super fun - I'll be back later with some more images...but for now, here are FOUR never-released collages!!!!


Saturday, June 1, 2013

sh-sh-sharing Janna' Bridals!!!!!

One of the most favorite things Janna ever said to me...."i was going to hire you whether u liked it or not!"....and so our relationship began...and now i get to share her bridals!!! <3  April 2013.

These are some highlights from our session...she can tell you the WHOLE story...but I have to say....she was a trooper for *hating* her pictures being taken.  As you can see....we explored a variety of spots around the villa to capture unique things only to her.  She loooooooooooved that Rolls Royce, the venue has them on site.  They are pretty neat. :)